Open / Closed

You told me

it was okay.

That it would be okay to open up

and let you know my feelings.

I told you things

i’ve never shared before.

What will forever haunt me

was your reaction.

That’s not a big deal

don’t worry about it.

Yes I sugarcoated it.

Because I was afraid.

But I was right.

He judged me

because people

doesn’t know how it feels.

How it feels to have a sadness in them

they cannot escape.

Or maybe they do.

Nobody ever talks about this.

It’s a tabu

not worth talking about.
But for me

I need someone.

And I needed him to hold me

and say it will be alright.

It didn’t happen.

All I wanted to do was to scream at him

but I let it go.

because that’s what I do.

I don’t tell people how I feel

But next time I’ll be more wise

before I let anybody in.

The pain isn’t always worth it.

But it will be worth when I find that person

who will hug me and kiss

after I let him in.

I just have to wait for him

until then i’ll be closed

and one day i will be open again

no matter how long it will be

I will wait for that guy.

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The life cycle of relationships

You fall for a guy

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Than you realize that the¬†honeymoon stage is over…

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You learn it the hard way how much love can hurt

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You wonder about this after the breakup..

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You sit around in your PJ’s all day eating and watching TV. You are also thinking I will never find someone and…

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Girl talk is much need but as Samantha says…

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Your friends get to a point where they have had enough

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That’s when you realize what your problem is

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And when you have realized the problem. The guy usually figures it out and comes crawling back

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But you are stronger than ever and you are able to say

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And you finish off with 

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And then you one moment you realize that you have moved on.

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Because you have such amazing friends

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And because this is a natural lifecycle it will happen again and again

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But remember who you are and don’t get lost

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