How many girls can honestly say they would answer that question with this response?
Needless to say – I love her !
I’ve been on a journey.
in January I went to Colorado to study and now i’m going back to my own country.
In less than a week I’ll be home.
and you know what?
It scares the shit out of me…..
Sorry I haven’t been posting but it freaks me out.
and you told me that you loved me
you told me we should run away together
Tonight, you looked me into the eyes
and you told me that you’ve had enough
you told me that you were confused
Tomorrow, you will look into my eyes
and you will tell me that all you want a hug
and tell me that it’s complicated.
Last week, I told myself that I should commit 100 %
and just believe in the love
I was ready..
In one night, everything changed
I was no longer wanted or desired
which I was blindsided by
Today you came by and you called my name
and you said all I want is hug and to see you
everything is blurred and unclear
because of what you have told me
and what your actions show
Those feelings that messes us up… The feelings that makes us feel alive and the best but at the same time those feelings can make us feel shit and the worst ever.
Why does it have to be hard? Maybe so we can better appreciate it when it’s just right.
I love love. I love being in love. And i love having that special connection with someone.
But i also hate feeling so dependent on a guy. Not being able to think about something else. It’s horrible. But it’s part of life and we have to deal with it. Because in the end: it’s better to have loved and be loved than nothing at all. That’s what I tell myself in order to continue.
I was a coward
afraid of my own feelings
that when I said goodbye
all I could do was to cry.
I didn’t even tell you how much you have changed for me
or how much your friendship has meant to me
and how I wish things would have been different.
But what done is done
and now I have to live with my choice.
Hopefully I will be strong again the next time or just tell you how I feel..
There was so much to be said like
I love you
I will miss you
I’ll never forget what we had
and I wish you the best things in life.
I never got to utter the words
I was too sad and tired
because you were leaving.
I hope you will keep your promise
that we will keep in touch
because if I get a second chance
I will tell you everything.
I’m glad for all that we got to experience together.
You are someone who I will never forget.
Yes, this is my goodbye to you
because I’m sure we will never see each other again
but know one thing: I love you
Goodbye to the life I created
the friends I made
to all the amazing experiences
to the love
to everything here.
My time here is done now
and we are all moving on.
I wish you all the best
just know that I love you and
I’ll never forget what we have experienced together.