And I’m at a crossroad this point in my life
and I don’t know what to do from here.
I’m not home
in familar settings
or with friends or family.
I’m in this unknown place
where everybody is fake.
Everybody talks behind each others back
and nobody says how they really feel.
Then there you are
you are my confidant.
You are the person I trust
You are the person who sees everything
when I’m down and when I’m truly happy.
Others doesn’t notice
because they don’t see it or doesn’t care.
You’ve seen me cry
You held me tight
and told me everything would be okay
when I was at my worst.
I’m getting better and better everyday
like they say time heals everything.
But I often get more mad
because I blame myself for not treating you better.
I know in the moment I did something wrong
but I have flaws
and I hate to admit when I’m wrong.
You are my best friend
the person I confide to
whether it’s happy or sad news.
I’ve told you stuff I have never told anybody
and it felt good
because all you did
was just to listen, hug me
and you told me everything would be okay.
So this is me apologizing.
Apologizing for my mistakes
and for the ones I will make
because I’m not perfect.
I’m stubborn and I have a temper
and I feel everything so strongly.
And I have a power to take it out on the people
who are closets to me.
But know that you will always be my friend
the friend who was there in the good and the bad times
for that I cannot express how much it means to me.
Sorry is the hardest word for me to express in this world.
I may say it daily but when it’s truthful and comes from within
it’s the hardest thing for me to do.
So this is my way of apologizing to you
because you are an amazing friend
and you should be treated like that everyday.